Have you ever felt completely alone in your misery, that God is very far from you, leaving you to wallow in a pit of despair, left to wonder how long will this last? My God, why have you forsaken me?
My husband and I said early on that we were not going to blame each other. But I still cannot help but wonder if we brought about Nicholas’ death with sin.
Intense grieving did not begin immediately. I wasn’t being phony, but shock and the Holy Spirit gave me an appearance of dealing seemingly well with the loss in the immediate aftermath.
