Learning to live after loss blog

  • Sunrise

    Entering the Sanctuary 

    I can hardly articulate what it means to enter the presence of a Holy God. Some have suggested that God is like their daddy and they feel like they can crawl up in His lap. That image seems irreverent to me. And yet, Christ came and changed everything! 

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  • That’s Not Fair 

    I see wicked people all around me not being held accountable for the evil that emanates from their pores. They are successful beyond belief without a care in the world. Their followers chant how great they are. God, that’s not fair! Why don’t You do something?

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  • When is Vengeance Okay

    I have never experienced war, but I imagine living through it would impact my perspective on vengeance. I recall my grandmother’s bitterness toward those who killed her loved ones. Would she be justified in wishing ill on whole nations, asking God to give them what was coming to them? 

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  • When Remorse Sets In

    In You’ve Got Mail, Joe had given Kathleen advice to “go to the mattresses,” meaning go to war. But he warned her, “when you finally have the pleasure of saying the thing you mean to say the moment you mean to say it, remorse inevitably follows.”  

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  • Julie and Drew Fillinger

    At Least I am not the F-mom

    Drew and friends were sharing their mothers’ preferred cuss word. Apparently, I was one of the D-moms. When Drew told me on the way home from school, I felt a little foolish. He tried to make me feel better by saying, “at least you aren’t the F-mom!”

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  • The Priest-King 

    I do not enjoy reading about God’s wrath spilling over in judgment.  As I keep growing in my understanding of His character, I am still somewhat conflicted by how mercy and justice co-exist. And yet, they do so perfectly in the Lord who is my Priest-King.

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  • Young Nicholas Fillinger in a knight costume

    Just Show Up 

    I think I am like most of my readers in that I love to watch an epic battle where good overcomes evil. To witness the courageous struggle when the stakes couldn’t be higher is riveting.  In real life, all I need to do is just show up. The battle is…

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  • Spiritual Renewal

    As I cry for spiritual renewal, heartache of some kind is what God uses to change me. He tries the easy way, but I don’t listen. Heartache is what seems to get my attention. Why is that? Why can’t I learn the easy way?

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